a soon-to-be failure

I started my project. Gave it a name, "Mind, Body, Soul Experiment," and dutifully worked on it for about 30 days. Now it sits, alone, untouched for a few weeks.

At first I thought the project would teach me about myself. I learned very quickly my self motivation and self discipline are lacking in strength.

I still consider my currents thoughts a result of the experiment. This is part of the process to teach myself to be fuller as a whole.

It just sucks.

I had a very clear view of my Self for a few years now, mainly unchanged. A strong, deep thinker, creative and unmerciful. Now I've found my Self is lazy, sarcastic, and slightly dull.

Oh the restlessness I feel is overwhelming.

Here's to getting my shit together.